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Religion, at its core, is supposed to be about connection, enlightenment, and spiritual alignment. It is meant to provide guidance, wisdom, and a framework for individuals to walk in harmony with the divine. But in practice, what is often found beneath the surface is something else entirely, a system that demands endless service, loyalty, and obedience while punishing those who dare to question or reclaim their own sovereignty. This is the true weight of religious service, the unspoken reality of institutional power, and the energetic consequences of breaking away from the system. My testimony to unveil what it truly means to be “called to serve” and why those who no longer fit within the structure are cast out. 1. The Burden of “Being Called to Serve” Many religions present service as a noble calling or a divine duty bestowed upon the faithful. In Christian traditions, phrases like “Called to serve Him, Heavenly King of Glory” or “Chosen heirs to witness to His name” sound poetic and profound. They evoke a sense of purpose, of being special, of belonging to something greater. But beneath these words lies a demand for obedience and self-sacrifice. The calling to serve often translates into: • Unquestioning loyalty to the institution • Giving up personal desires, ambitions, and sometimes even relationships • Measuring faith by how much one suffers or sacrifices Scenario 1: The Overworked Servant Imagine a devout member of a church who volunteers constantly with leading youth groups, organizing events, assisting in services. They give all their time, effort, and energy in the name of faith. But when they finally reach a breaking point and step back, they are met with shame, guilt, and accusations of laziness or spiritual weakness and shamed. This is not divine service. This is burnout disguised as faithfulness. Scenario 2: The “Fallen” Seeker A deeply spiritual individual starts questioning doctrine, exploring other perspectives, and seeking a more personal connection to the divine. Questions such as “when will lucifer be saved” or “was god an alien” “why is sex a sin isn’t that nature” birds do it, bees do it, even educated fleas do it, apparently. Instead of being encouraged and properly educated they are met with judgment, suspicion, and eventual rejection from their religious community. Their once-close relationships grow cold, and whispers spread about their “rebellion.” Or loose standards. This isn’t about faith, it’s about control. 2. The Church as an Institution, No Different from a Business Empire Religious institutions often present themselves as humble, service-oriented organizations, yet many operate no differently than powerful corporations or even underground syndicates. Their vast empires, whether built on wealth, influence, or political power are guarded fiercely. Signs That the Church Functions Like a Business Empire 1. Massive Wealth with Minimal Transparency • Many churches hold billions in assets, real estate, and investments while still demanding financial sacrifices from their followers. • Example: A megachurch pastor flies in private jets, while congregation members struggle financially but are told to “tithe faithfully.” 2. Fear-Based Retention Strategies • Instead of welcoming independent spiritual growth, the institution instills fear of damnation, ostracization, or spiritual failure if one leaves or questions too much. • Example: Someone who leaves the church is labeled as “lost” or under “Satan’s influence,” ensuring they are socially and spiritually isolated. 3. Excommunication or Energetic Attacks Against Dissenters • The moment someone no longer fits within the mold, they are subtly or sometimes aggressively pushed out, silenced or worse. • Example: A longtime church leader begins advocating for spiritual independence. Suddenly, they are excluded from events, dismissed from leadership, and rumors circulate that they are in “spiritual danger.” These tactics mirror those of any powerful organization protecting its own survival above all else. 3. The Energetic & Psychological Toll of Breaking Away Leaving a religious institution or even questioning it can often lead to a deep sense of loss, confusion, and even energetic attacks. What Happens When You Step Away? • Guilt Programming Activates – You may feel an overwhelming sense of guilt, as if you are betraying something sacred, even when following your truth. • Social and Spiritual Isolation – Friends and family still within the system may distance themselves, making you feel like an outsider. • Energetic Backlash – Some experience psychic attacks, unsettling dreams, or emotional turmoil, as the institution’s collective energy seeks to pull them back. This isn’t divine punishment it’s the remnants of an energetic stronghold trying to hold on. Scenario 3: The Ex-Devotee’s Struggle A person who was once deeply involved in their religious community leaves, realizing the system does not align with their spiritual truth anymore and they experience: • A deep sense of grief, as though mourning a lost identity • Unexplained anxiety, nightmares, or feelings of being “watched” • A pull to return, even when they know it isn’t right for them This is the psychological and energetic weight of breaking programming. But once they push through, they experience true spiritual freedom. 4. True Service vs. Institutional Service If one truly desires to serve the divine, it does not require servitude to an institution. What Real Service Looks Like: • Living in Alignment – Serving not through obligation, but by being a living embodiment of truth, love, and wisdom. • Uplifting Others Without Control – Helping others without demanding loyalty, obedience, or conformity. • Preserving Energy and Self-Sovereignty – Recognizing that giving to exhaustion is not service; it is self-sacrifice at the expense of spiritual well-being. Scenario 4: The Free Spiritualist A person who once served tirelessly in a religious institution steps away and begins practicing spiritual service on their own terms, helping those in need and offering wisdom, as well as living by example. They are at peace, fulfilled, and spiritually abundant despite being seen as a “lost soul” by their former religious community. This is what I call true service one that uplifts rather than enslaves. 5. Walking Away Without Fear The world may call you lazy for resting. The church

The intricate dynamics of human relationships, especially marriage, finds a place for certain archetypal energies to play a critical role in fostering connection, passion, and growth. Among these are the Jezebelian and Delilah energies often misunderstood, yet profoundly important when expressed in healthy and balanced ways. These energies, far from being inherently dark or destructive, hold the potential to nurture and sustain a relationship when channelled correctly. However, when twisted by darker forces whether the influence of the devil, as some might see it, or simply the shadowy aspects of human nature they can become destructive and unhealthy. Understanding Jezebelian Energy The Jezebelian energy is commonly associated with ambition, assertiveness, and a commanding presence. It embodies the qualities of confidence, determination, and a strong sense of self. While its Biblical namesake has a history of being demonised, this archetype can represent feminine power and leadership when embraced in its purest form. In a healthy context, Jezebelian energy brings strength to a marriage. It inspires both partners to pursue their goals while maintaining mutual respect. It promotes clear boundaries, purposeful communication, and the courage to challenge stagnation. However, when distorted by the darker impulses of pride, greed, or the desire for control, this energy can become toxic. When influenced by the dark nature of humanity, Jezebelian energy may manifest as: • Overdominance: A relentless need to control, often at the expense of the partner’s autonomy. • Manipulative Power: Using cunning or force to gain the upper hand, regardless of the relational cost. • Arrogance: A refusal to compromise or admit vulnerability, leading to emotional detachment or conflict. This twisted form of the Jezebelian archetype loses its empowering essence and becomes a force of destruction, tearing down the very foundations it was meant to build. Understanding Delilah Energy Delilah energy, on the other hand, is rooted in charm, influence, and an intuitive understanding of emotional dynamics. This energy is sensual, alluring, and adept at fostering intimacy. At its best, it is the gentle thread that weaves emotional depth and trust into a relationship. Yet, when distorted by darker forces be it personal insecurities, selfishness, or malicious intent this energy can turn into a weapon of manipulation. Instead of fostering intimacy, it undermines it. Twisted Delilah energy might manifest as: • Deceit: Using emotional vulnerability as a tool to manipulate or exploit a partner. • Seduction as Power: Employing allure not for connection, but for control or dominance. • Emotional Exploitation: Preying on the partner’s insecurities to gain an advantage or retain influence. When the devil’s whisper, or humanity’s darker nature, twists this energy, it shifts from being a source of emotional nourishment to one of betrayal and harm. The Balance of Jezebelian and Delilah Energies A thriving marriage requires a delicate balance of both these energies. The Jezebelian energy contributes strength, leadership, and drive, while the Delilah energy softens with tenderness, allure, and emotional depth. Together, they form a harmonious interplay of power and vulnerability, creating a dynamic partnership where both individuals feel supported and empowered. However, when either energy is corrupted, the balance crumbles. Both the overbearing Jezebelian and the manipulative Delilah archetypes can create an environment of distrust, resentment, and emotional harm. These distortions not only weaken the marriage but also alienate the partners from their truest selves. When Darkness Takes Over: The Impact of Twisted Energies When these energies are twisted by the darker aspects of humanity such as greed, pride, fear, or malice they move away from their intended purpose of connection and empowerment. They become: • Tools of Control: Instead of fostering mutual growth, they are used to dominate or suppress. • Weapons of Deceit: Trust is replaced by manipulation, where love becomes conditional or transactional. • Sources of Chaos: Instead of creating balance, they fuel instability, conflict, and emotional wounds. These corrupted expressions arise when we lose touch with self-awareness, compassion, and the divine principles of love and unity. Whether seen as the work of the devil or the shadow side of human nature, they serve to sever rather than unite. Embracing These Energies in a Healthy Way To keep these energies in their pure and productive forms, it is essential to approach them with intentionality and self-awareness. Here are some ways to do so: 1. Self-Awareness: Reflect on how these energies manifest within you. Are you using them to build or to control? To connect or to manipulate? 2. Check Your Intentions: Ensure that your actions stem from love, respect, and a desire to grow together, rather than from fear, pride, or insecurity. 3. Balance and Boundaries: Recognise when to assert yourself (Jezebelian energy) and when to nurture vulnerability (Delilah energy). Both have their place, but they must exist in harmony. 4. Communicate Openly: Discuss your dynamics as a couple. Transparency helps prevent misuses of power and influence. 5. Seek Divine Guidance or Inner Wisdom: For those with spiritual beliefs, turning to prayer, meditation, or guidance can help purify intentions and align these energies with love. Wrapping It All Up So now we know, the delicate balance of Jezebelian and Delilah energies, because every relationship needs a dash of ambition, a sprinkle of charm, and absolutely no manipulation or power struggles (because that’s never happened before in the history of humanity, right?). If you’re lucky, these energies will dance together like a perfectly rehearsed tango if not don’t force it, congratulations, you’ve just enrolled in the emotional equivalent of a demolition derby. In truth, harnessing these archetypes in their healthy forms is like trying to assemble IKEA furniture without instructions: tricky, frustrating, but ultimately worth it when you finally sit back and admire what you’ve built. Just remember, if things get twisted by the darker side of humanity (or, you know, the devil himself), you might find yourself in a marriage that feels more like a high-stakes soap opera than a harmonious partnership. So, here’s to keeping Jezebel ambitious but not power-hungry, Delilah charming but not manipulative, and Eggman…well, Eggman just trying to keep

Once, there was a boy born under dark stars, marked unknowingly by forces beyond his reach. In his early years, he was brought into a cult as an unwilling scapegoat, his innocent soul bearing the weight of an ancient curse, he was bound to carry the spirits of both Lucifer and Lilith. This mark, invisible to the boy, followed him everywhere, shaping his life with a relentless series of traumas and heartbreak. His family life was fractured, shadowed by tragedies that struck just when glimpses of hope began to shine. A few small victories kept his spirit alive, but they were fleeting, mere pauses in the haunting song that was his life. As he grew, the boy became a man, and with each passing year, he felt a subtle but growing awareness of something hidden, a presence that seemed to hover around him, watching, orchestrating, a force that seemed to manipulate even his smallest decisions. Every so often, he would change his schedule on a whim, and in those moments, he’d feel a faint shift, as if unseen forces had to recalibrate. The world around him began to feel like an elaborate show, a strange, twisted play where he was both actor and audience. He’d often talk aloud to no one in particular, feeling presences respond in ways that went beyond mere coincidence. The answers came from strangers and friends, through messages or random usernames online. Each response seemed woven into a larger, cryptic dialogue, as if he were speaking to a cosmic intelligence that fragmented itself to communicate. With this growing awareness, Lilith, sensing his strength, sought to quell his awakening. In his dreams and meditations, she visited him, wrapping him in darkness. She intended to impregnate his spirit with snakes, venomous spirits designed to corrode and corrupt. But what emerged was not decay, it was creation. The man gave birth to dragons of the spirit, four ancient powers that took on the names of Wisdom, Knowledge, Enlightenment, and Ascension. These dragons defied Lilith’s intent and roamed the earth, sharing their gifts with humanity, scattering light into shadows. The dragons brought clarity and guidance to those who sought it, vexing Lilith, who saw her grip slipping with each soul they touched. Lucifer, too, grew restless, his plans unraveling as the man slipped from his grasp. In time, the man broke free of their grip entirely, becoming something neither spirit had foreseen, a sovereign force of his own, untethered to their ancient games.  Enraged, Lilith and Lucifer watched him go, knowing that they had lost this round but that the game would continue through others. For this was the way of the cosmos, a sick, endless performance where souls are cast as pawns, and suffering spins its eternal wheel. The man, now wise beyond words, wondered if all of creation, including the god that allowed such games, was part of a cosmic sickness. In the depths of his spirit, he questioned if any higher force could be truly benevolent while allowing such torment to play out.  Yet, in his hands, he held a glimmer of choice, a light he’d kindled from within. And though he walked alone, he walked freely, holding within him the hard-won dragons of wisdom, the ones he’d birthed through pain, and carry him on his path. The moral of the story is that even in the face of overwhelming darkness and manipulation, true strength and wisdom come from within. Life’s trials, no matter how brutal, can become catalysts for personal awakening. When we confront our own shadows and transcend the forces that try to control us, we not only free ourselves but also transform our suffering into gifts that can uplift others. True sovereignty comes when we stop seeking validation from the outside and, instead, recognize our own power to create meaning and light in the world.