Heart Of A Star

Once in a world both cruel and tight, where men and women lost their light, they bowed, they bent, they served, they knelt, they swallowed pain they never spelt. A hand, a lash, a word, a chain, a whispered threat, a silent bane. They learned to smile with hollow grace, to mask the fear upon their face. They stitched their tongues, they stilled their cries, they wore their roles like dead men’s ties. To please, to yield, to scrape, to fade to be the thing that others made. Yet deep inside, where darkness crept, where shattered dreams and sorrows wept, a voice as small as dust and bone began to hum, began to groan. A sound so thin, so soft, so weak, it dared to rise, it dared to speak. Not in anger, not in spite, but in a whisper edged with light. It said, “Oh yes, I bowed, I broke, I choked on words I never spoke. I bore their chains, I played their part, but now, I know, I have a heart.” And one by one, they stood, they rose, with weary eyes and tattered clothes. No longer bound by fate or shame, no longer pawns in someone’s game. Yet, in their rise, they saw it clear the ones who bent them lived in fear. For power stolen, power fed, is power brittle, filled with dread. And in that moment, they could see, that to be strong is to be free. Not to return the lash, the chain, not to inflict another’s pain. But to stand, unshaken, true, to be the thing they always knew. And so they left the halls of night, to bathe their souls in rising light. For in the breaking of the heart, we find the whole, the light, the start. And in the shadow’s cold embrace, we learn the truth, we know our place. The moral, clear, as a whisper still, Power’s not in break nor kill. Not in chains, nor rule, nor throne, Power’s knowing you are your own.

Lessons from Music – Fia’s “I Am” Fia’s song “I Am” is a powerful anthem of self-acceptance, inner strength, and the limitless potential within each of us. It’s a reminder that when we embrace our true selves, free from external expectations and distractions, we unlock the ability to live authentically and in harmony with life’s flow. One of the key messages in “I Am” is the realization that we are already whole. So often, we seek validation or happiness from the outside world, believing that our worth is defined by others’ opinions or our circumstances. But Fia’s lyrics remind us that everything we need is already within us, we are enough, just as we are. The song also speaks to the idea of stepping into our power and living from a place of self-love and trust. When we recognize our own strength, we become free from the need for approval or attachment to external outcomes. Life becomes less about striving for perfection or battling insecurities, and more about embracing the present moment with gratitude and confidence. Another theme is the balance between surrender and strength. Fia sings about the importance of letting go of the need to control everything, trusting the natural flow of life instead. This surrender isn’t about giving up, but about understanding that peace comes when we align ourselves with life’s rhythm, instead of resisting it. “I Am” reminds us that we are both powerful and at peace, capable of shaping our lives while also flowing with what is. It’s a song about shedding fears, stepping into our light, and living authentically, because, as Fia beautifully puts it, “I am here, I am whole, and I am enough.” In embracing this truth, we find freedom from external distractions and a deeper connection to our inner selves. The power lies within us, waiting to be awakened.

Religion, at its core, is supposed to be about connection, enlightenment, and spiritual alignment. It is meant to provide guidance, wisdom, and a framework for individuals to walk in harmony with the divine. But in practice, what is often found beneath the surface is something else entirely, a system that demands endless service, loyalty, and obedience while punishing those who dare to question or reclaim their own sovereignty. This is the true weight of religious service, the unspoken reality of institutional power, and the energetic consequences of breaking away from the system. My testimony to unveil what it truly means to be “called to serve” and why those who no longer fit within the structure are cast out. 1. The Burden of “Being Called to Serve” Many religions present service as a noble calling or a divine duty bestowed upon the faithful. In Christian traditions, phrases like “Called to serve Him, Heavenly King of Glory” or “Chosen heirs to witness to His name” sound poetic and profound. They evoke a sense of purpose, of being special, of belonging to something greater. But beneath these words lies a demand for obedience and self-sacrifice. The calling to serve often translates into: • Unquestioning loyalty to the institution • Giving up personal desires, ambitions, and sometimes even relationships • Measuring faith by how much one suffers or sacrifices Scenario 1: The Overworked Servant Imagine a devout member of a church who volunteers constantly with leading youth groups, organizing events, assisting in services. They give all their time, effort, and energy in the name of faith. But when they finally reach a breaking point and step back, they are met with shame, guilt, and accusations of laziness or spiritual weakness and shamed. This is not divine service. This is burnout disguised as faithfulness. Scenario 2: The “Fallen” Seeker A deeply spiritual individual starts questioning doctrine, exploring other perspectives, and seeking a more personal connection to the divine. Questions such as “when will lucifer be saved” or “was god an alien” “why is sex a sin isn’t that nature” birds do it, bees do it, even educated fleas do it, apparently. Instead of being encouraged and properly educated they are met with judgment, suspicion, and eventual rejection from their religious community. Their once-close relationships grow cold, and whispers spread about their “rebellion.” Or loose standards. This isn’t about faith, it’s about control. 2. The Church as an Institution, No Different from a Business Empire Religious institutions often present themselves as humble, service-oriented organizations, yet many operate no differently than powerful corporations or even underground syndicates. Their vast empires, whether built on wealth, influence, or political power are guarded fiercely. Signs That the Church Functions Like a Business Empire 1. Massive Wealth with Minimal Transparency • Many churches hold billions in assets, real estate, and investments while still demanding financial sacrifices from their followers. • Example: A megachurch pastor flies in private jets, while congregation members struggle financially but are told to “tithe faithfully.” 2. Fear-Based Retention Strategies • Instead of welcoming independent spiritual growth, the institution instills fear of damnation, ostracization, or spiritual failure if one leaves or questions too much. • Example: Someone who leaves the church is labeled as “lost” or under “Satan’s influence,” ensuring they are socially and spiritually isolated. 3. Excommunication or Energetic Attacks Against Dissenters • The moment someone no longer fits within the mold, they are subtly or sometimes aggressively pushed out, silenced or worse. • Example: A longtime church leader begins advocating for spiritual independence. Suddenly, they are excluded from events, dismissed from leadership, and rumors circulate that they are in “spiritual danger.” These tactics mirror those of any powerful organization protecting its own survival above all else. 3. The Energetic & Psychological Toll of Breaking Away Leaving a religious institution or even questioning it can often lead to a deep sense of loss, confusion, and even energetic attacks. What Happens When You Step Away? • Guilt Programming Activates – You may feel an overwhelming sense of guilt, as if you are betraying something sacred, even when following your truth. • Social and Spiritual Isolation – Friends and family still within the system may distance themselves, making you feel like an outsider. • Energetic Backlash – Some experience psychic attacks, unsettling dreams, or emotional turmoil, as the institution’s collective energy seeks to pull them back. This isn’t divine punishment it’s the remnants of an energetic stronghold trying to hold on. Scenario 3: The Ex-Devotee’s Struggle A person who was once deeply involved in their religious community leaves, realizing the system does not align with their spiritual truth anymore and they experience: • A deep sense of grief, as though mourning a lost identity • Unexplained anxiety, nightmares, or feelings of being “watched” • A pull to return, even when they know it isn’t right for them This is the psychological and energetic weight of breaking programming. But once they push through, they experience true spiritual freedom. 4. True Service vs. Institutional Service If one truly desires to serve the divine, it does not require servitude to an institution. What Real Service Looks Like: • Living in Alignment – Serving not through obligation, but by being a living embodiment of truth, love, and wisdom. • Uplifting Others Without Control – Helping others without demanding loyalty, obedience, or conformity. • Preserving Energy and Self-Sovereignty – Recognizing that giving to exhaustion is not service; it is self-sacrifice at the expense of spiritual well-being. Scenario 4: The Free Spiritualist A person who once served tirelessly in a religious institution steps away and begins practicing spiritual service on their own terms, helping those in need and offering wisdom, as well as living by example. They are at peace, fulfilled, and spiritually abundant despite being seen as a “lost soul” by their former religious community. This is what I call true service one that uplifts rather than enslaves. 5. Walking Away Without Fear The world may call you lazy for resting. The church